Sunday, August 17, 2014

Just a quickie....

Well after a few rough weeks, I have had to make a decision and I am going to be increasing the methadone again.... I tried but it was not the right time.

Symptom's of the CRPS pre: methadone were coming back, the pain was getting unbearable, the burning was increasing, I was focusing so much on the pain that my study was falling behind. I started dropping things, I fell over twice today as my balance was becoming unstable, all things that were happening before the methadone. It now makes me realise how much the methadone was helping me.... I could no longer leave the house in case I fell in the mall, or supermarket - not a good look trust me ;)

So after many tears and a talk with David, we have decided to increase the methadone again, and then see how things are in a month or two.

I feel felt like a failure, but am slowly getting over that....

How does this affect Aussie etc, well hopefully nothing will really change there. Anyway just a little update, will do a vlog in a couple of days time when I am up to talking without turning into a blubbering mess :)

Oh and to top things MIL has gone back into hospital again this morning... :(

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

A Vlog.....

Yip finally a vlog - enjoy and don't forget to subscribe and like :)

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

And I thought no-one loved me......

I found heaps of comments on my dashboard that I had not received emails about this meant they were not published - so sorry for those I did not reply too.... 

One I will reply to is Peta, who suggested we could consider moving to Sydney - well one slight problem both David and I didn't click with Sydney, we loved it for a few short days on holiday but then we were glad to move on. Also we have a lot more friends in the Gold Coast/Brisbane area.

Speaking of Aussie, if you look this way ------> you will see a countdown clock, yes we booked our flights to Coolangatta for June 17th 2015 - 308 days away. We booked them now, as Air New Zealand has a 48 hour sale on to Aussie so for $380 we got 2 tickets to Coolangatta. We still have to get return as our return dates were not in sale, so will wait for another special to happen for that one, and we are still not sure if we are staying 2 or 3 weeks, we fly in again on a Wednesday and arrive in Australia about 2pm their time, like we did last time as it was perfect, we will just drive up to Auckland on the morning. This is after my exams and before the final semester starts for me then I graduate (well all going to plan). Also I will be off all my methadone by then, so will be interesting to see how it goes pain wise. 

So moving on from that, my BM's (Bowel Motions) are all pretty much under control, so I am now ready to go lower carb, NOT low carb, just lower carb.... also I have let my fitness slide a little, ok a lot so now Spring is near I am going to start walking Chico again, again it will be a no rush walk, it will be a just get out and enjoy walk, and in return that will get me fitter :)

So that folks these are my plans for the next 12 months:
  • Eat healthier, less carbs and more fresh foods rather than packaged - I know I said I was not going to weigh but I did this morning and will again every month. Surprising my weight was pretty much where it was still after I got ill that time. Also coming into Spring/Summer it is so much easier to eat healthier and fresher :).
  • Start getting into a walking plan with Chico - no real goals but would like to be walking 5-6k's comfortably 5 days a week by the time we fly out :).
  • Be off most if not all my meds, but will be off the methadone, and will probably still use Panadol and Tramadol as needed. 
  • Start saving for my spending money, we have enough money for the trip, hire car, tickets, accommodation etc... so I just need spending money. So no more buying after what I have just ordered in the last few weeks arrive lol. Am going to keep an eye on the Aussie $ and if it starts dropping we will go and get some cash changed over.
  • Keep focusing on distraction and meditations to help with pain as I reduce the meds. 
I am also going to keep blogging more regularly again, it helps me to focus on my goals, so there you go thats what is happening me with me :)

Monday, August 11, 2014

I really must.....

get back into blogging more, surely it has not been that long since I last blogged but it must have been....

Anyway where was I....
  • I have moved my makeup table etc into the spare room, now that Steph has moved out, so it is brilliant that I can do my makeup in peace, and not wake up David in the morning when I am doing it etc.....
  • Though the mornings have been rather chilly like minus 1's, 2's and 3's, we have had some lovely sunny days, where I sit in the recliner and enjoy the warmth of the sun on my body while I study :) - having said that today is overcast and yukk....
  • I am still reducing my meds, the pain has increased but not sure if that is the weather or the med reduction or both - in summer I will be able to tell I hope. 
  • Study is going ok, I dropped 1 paper as the workload was just to much :)
  • Plans for moving to Aussie are still on track :)
  • My hair is in drastic need of a cut and roots bleached but as it is winter I am holding of as long as possible, hoping I can get another 2 weeks before I go to the hairdresser, why because I have to drive about 50 minutes through the gorge to get to my hairdresser and there is heaps of black ice on the road, and I can not make an afternoon appointment as I am too out of it to drive in the afternoons - also I just can't be bothered right at the moment going to Tauranga. Speaking of haircuts Miss Chico got a nice clip on the weekend, so she is looking all pretty again :). 
Anyway the other day we took MIL out for lunch and this is what I wore....

Leggings - 'Autograph' (No longer in stock)
Jumper - 'TS14Plus' (I could not find it, so maybe sold out)
Shoes - 'Converse'
Flower - Some market in the Gold Coast

Makeup - 
I used the 'Urban Decay Electric Palette' for the eye shadow, colours I used were Gonzo, Chaos, and Trash
Lipstick - 'Lime Crime' - Airborne Unicorn

Anyway thats about it for now..... I promise to come back much quicker this time around :)

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

A bit of this and a bit of that.....

Thought I had better do an update - might do bullet points, am to tired to do a full post - but am going to do a vlog post on Friday or the weekend with more details.

  • Update on moving to Aussie - my CRPS won't be an issue/David can get 6 months of work unpaid, so if it all goes belly up, he will still have a job. 
  • Will definitely be going to Aussie next year, a long story but I have been gifted $3000 so that is going towards the trip, we are thinking of staying 3 weeks next time
  • Got my nails done today, was not going to get them done, but hated them all yukky 
  • The plane that got shot down the other week, had my dad's second cousin on there, she was coming with her partner to New Zealand to see his son (her step son sort off). My cousins also had friends on board as well - very sad, especially when it is close to home, a lot of the people came from areas where a lot of my extended family live.
  • Finished shifting Gwen into her room in the retirement village, her unit is empty, ready to be renovated before the next person moves in, hope it sells quick. Its been a tough time for David, because very waking moment he has been organising the place and clearing it out, selling things etc... but all done - so we are hoping to go to Tauranga on the weekend :)
  • The old blogging world is buzzing again about professional blogs/vlogs and what defines sponsoring of a blog, personally I believe a sponsored blog is when they are sent gifts regardless of if they are asked to blog/vlog about it or not, because lets face it companies send gifts in the hope they will blog/vlog about it. But apparently sponsored blog/vlogs are only where the company sends the gifts and then pays you to do like maybe three posts about something. In each case they are suppose to give their honest opinion, which I have my doubts they actually do. But if they are going to blog/vlog about something should they not check reviews from other people etc and see what they are - now why I am saying this, is there was a vlog I was watching, and she was being sponsored for her vlog (as in getting the item for free and also getting paid for doing it, and it was not a cheap item), anyway she was giving it high praise but by doing a quick search as I was once looking at it, and found terrible feedback everywhere for it, hence why I did not buy it in the end. Some of these bloggers/vloggers are highly respected and because of her they sold a few by looking at the comments, surly as a blogger/vlogger would you not research the product they are offering first, everywhere you looked it had bad reviews about breaking down etc.... I would like to think people would do their own research but obviously some of them have that much respect in these bloggers/vloggers that what they hear they believe. I know it is their income but hey if it wasn't for their likers they would not be making any money, surly if they respect their likers like they say they do, wouldn't they turn down promoting stuff that has bad feedback with not only the product but also the company. I actually wrote a comment and warned people to research the product before purchasing as the feedback on the product and company was not very good. These bloggers/vloggers have tens of thousands if not hundred of thousands people viewing their vlogs daily. I know if it was me I would never ever do a blog/vlog on stuff with bad feedback like this particular item... because I would respect my 'fans' to much for that... I have seen this sort of thing happen quite regularly on blogs/vlogs, and find it sad that people get sucked in.... and my other bitch session now again on blogs/vlogs - I was watching another one where this girl gets heaps sent to her from her fans, homemade gifts etc, and she goes on how much she treasures the gifts, has her PO Box in a prominent position and asks people to send her mail etc - well the other day she was having a clean out, and was giving a whole lot of stuff away and all the stuff was in a box ready to give away, she vlogged about it and many of her fans said they saw there stuff in the box they had sent her, which she basically called junk - whoops wrong move if you are going to vlog, don't do one where you say you are getting rid of junk, and then your viewers see there gift they sent you in a box you are giving to the op shop or whoever. If they don't want gifts etc from there likers, then don't advertise your PO Box in the description, if companies want to get hold of you, give them an email  but by advertising your PO Box and saying you like receiving stuff, then certainly don't do what this person did and vlog about getting rid of junk - she lost a lot of subscribers because of this booboo. 
These blogger/vloggers make bloody good money, and get sent heaps of stuff, yes a lot of it is good, but when there are things that are so obviously bad, surly they should have respect to their likers/followers and not try and sell them junk.... I know people should research but what concerns me is that a lot of the stuff they vlog about is aimed at younger people, and some of these kids are so impressionable with these vloggers that whatever they say they will believe. 

Anyway thats my thoughts for today :)

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

First off.....

I got a phone-call this morning regarding this website and Fashion show - It is the MADRINA FASHION SHOW - click 'here' for their Facebook page - and this what they are about from their Facebook page :)

A Complex Regional Pain Syndrome Event
To find a cure for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.

Challenging aspiring fashion designers from around the world, to create outfits that counter the hypersensitivity of Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.

And to top it off the winning designer was Yeonjae Choi from New Zealand:

Anyway onto other things, I have tried curling my hair twice, ok it is not quite long enough but hey I need to practice, the first time was a disaster and I was left with a few burns on my scalp and face where the iron touched - whoops lol - anyway onto the second attempt which was today, not once did I burn my scalp or face and here are the photos...

Yes my hair needs to be a bit longer, but my hair is usually as flat as a pancake and it did give me some height etc.... not to bad for a second attempt :)
Excuse the red face, am not sure why it is showing up so red, it must be the lighting... and no makeup either :)

The back was hard to do so just did a few curls and it was not bad considering - as my hair gets longer the curls will get more defined - I am aiming for the beachy curls look :)

Not sure if I mentioned that I got a speeding ticket the other month, it was my first one ever and it was for going 55km's in a 50k area - and it cost me a whole $30. Bit sad that I got one, was hoping to go all my life without receiving one at all. It was from a camera so no demerit points which is the bonus :)

Have had a rough couple of days, MIL got rushed into hospital on Sunday night, at 1.30am we got the phone call - David went there and was told to expect the worst as they were not going to do resus. Anyway I arrived at about 4.15am, and she had picked up amazing once they got the oxygen going and other stuff started working... she is still in hospital and will be for a few more days, the doctors and nurses were amazed she survived they kept saying when they came in how she looked like a different person, she is one tough women :). She had fluid on the lungs/heart etc  - which is a regular thing happening with her lately, and of course each time it takes its toll on her heart. 

Anyway thats about it for now... have a great week all and catch you soon :)

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Things are looking more positive....

Have been having a ball selling thing on Buy/Sell/Swap Facebook pages, list it, a few hours later it is sold, then usually within 24 hours I have got the money, without having to leave the house :). Am going to have a major clean out with stuff now. This money is going to be my spending money for our next trip :). 

I am on a 'no buying' spree... (hmmm can't think of the right word lol) - anyway am not looking at any emails coming through that could tempt me to spend money, I delete them as soon as I see them in my inbox, before I can read them. I would like to not spend for at least 1 month and then may try for 2 months. But I am also planning on the fact that I will be moving to Aussie, so will need any money I can get. I know it doesn't seem much spending $20 here and there, but it is surprising how quick all these little spends add up. 

I have emailed the Embassy to find out what I need to do re: CRPS and moving to Aussie, no point in planning everything, if they won't accept me, they said it should not be an issue but will get back to me once they have checked it out properly. So assuming it won't be an issue, I will keep planning for the move. 

I am coming of my meds, first step is the methadone, I am hoping to be off it completely by end of this year, from there I will just keep eliminating the next one and so on... has my pain increased yes, but am not sure if that is from the med decrease or the cold weather, time will tell - but I am going to do this, I am learning how to breathe through the pain and using meditation. 

Has anyone seen, well I am sure most of you have they way everyone is talking about it 'Orange is the New Black', have only watched the first two episodes from series 1, but am loving it and so many people have said great things about it :)

This week I have managed to get some really good study done, which makes me feel good. Tomorrow David and I are hopefully going out for brunch, then we might have a walk around 'Rainbow Springs'. David and I have not spent anytime together since we have got back, he has been doing family stuff. 

Chris is in Taupo this weekend with his dad, doing an advanced diving course, and doing a river dive and a night dive, so he is in his element. Steph and her boyfriend Rob are going to meet them for dinner tonight, as she works weekends, she does not see her dad much anymore. Next week I must go and get my eyes checked, it has been two years and as I am an AA member, we get a free eye test every two years. I need some new glasses, so think I will get my measurements and order some glasses online for a fraction of the price - all about saving money lol. 

Anyway thats about it for now, I am trying to keep positive about life in general, I know compared to some my life challenges seem small, but they are still my challenges and they are important to me. And I also am holding onto the belief that what will be will be, and that means if moving to Aussie is the right decision, it will all fall into place :). 

Have a happy Sunday all :)