Hi, I am a professional nail tech that lives in the beautiful country of New Zealand. I also have CRPS -- Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.
I have a love for anything Kombi and love the beach, and dream one day of owning my VW Beetle and a cottage by the sea.
Well after a few rough weeks, I have had to make a decision and I am going to be increasing the methadone again.... I tried but it was not the right time.
Symptom's of the CRPS pre: methadone were coming back, the pain was getting unbearable, the burning was increasing, I was focusing so much on the pain that my study was falling behind. I started dropping things, I fell over twice today as my balance was becoming unstable, all things that were happening before the methadone. It now makes me realise how much the methadone was helping me.... I could no longer leave the house in case I fell in the mall, or supermarket - not a good look trust me ;)
So after many tears and a talk with David, we have decided to increase the methadone again, and then see how things are in a month or two.
I feel felt like a failure, but am slowly getting over that....
How does this affect Aussie etc, well hopefully nothing will really change there. Anyway just a little update, will do a vlog in a couple of days time when I am up to talking without turning into a blubbering mess :)
Oh and to top things MIL has gone back into hospital again this morning... :(